i'm up to my ears in remedies.  

on the flip side, my macbook has not crashed in days.  maybe she's fixed. 

i can't wait till the semester is over.  i was talking to another law school friend today about the differences between law school and undergrad (and this could be the same for other graduate degrees...i'm not in others so i have no idea).  i was saying how exhausting this whole process is because there is never an easy semester.  every semester we are still competing against each other for grades so even if the class is "easy" it doesnt mean i will do well because its still totally dependent on everyone else.  a guy in the bus the other night asked me how i felt about the test i had just taken.  as if this is supposed to be a good barometer of what grade i'll get?  sometimes i'll feel horrible about a test, but lucky for me so does everyone else.  so even though in normal situations i may have bombed it, in this situation i did quite well because everyone else did worse than me (that's the positive side to a curve).  but it rarely turns out this way.  its usually all of us fighting tooth and nail to beat the other guy out.  

and as if that's not enough there is an incredible amount of pressure to find a job. a summer job, a semester job, a job after i graduate.  i never remember working this hard to find a job.  and it cant be just any job...it has to be legal.  the hard part is finding one that pays.  ugh.  i'm tired and its time for bed.  too bad i havent studied.  the motivation is hard to come by these days.