loser

tonight i am a loser...that is, a loser of two potential job offers. i am trying to maintain my dignity and some amount of grace but it seems more of me was wrapped up in these potential jobs (and might i add potential small fortunes) than i had realized.

but i'm glad (relieved, blessed, excited...?) that its happening this way because i am always asking God to show me His will (not mine) and reveal to me His plan in His timing. i have an inkling that this is part of that plan. mostly because the situation is odd...people generally get offers from call backs and these two firms really liked me and said i was an excellent candidate (and i know i interview well because i am personable and well-liked).

so i believe this is one of those moments (as joel aptly put) that in a few months we will look back on this ever-hard time and say "see, that's why they didn't choose you...God had something so much better in mind!"